Being a freelance consultant, criticizing how others do
their job has its moments. From the very first day I set out to tell the truth,
many went out of their way to slander my name and ruin my reputation. However,
that wasn’t enough, they went the extra mile to attempt to silence me forever
and threaten me with lawsuits and other types of harms just because I spoke
out.
One would think, I possessed some kind of special power to
give them reason to threaten me like that and challenge my incomparable wisdom
and knowledge of the business and profession as others like me were intimidated
into silence and stunned to speak if approached by anyone on the matter of
concern. One might say it was a matter of principle for me to speak out when nobody
else would and face the consequences of dealing with such corruptible people
who sought anonymity whenever they spoke or reached out for special favors.
Not comparing myself to a saint or hero because I spoke the
truth and shared the knowledge of Solomon and answered all the questions asked
of me by investigators, reporters and others interested in finding out the truth
on matters kept secret under the cover of governmental security business and
revealing their chinks in armor which in turn could bring negative publicity,
anger and displeasure with their lack of professional judgment and concern for
other human beings.
For some, the answers provided added more substance to their
suspicious and inquisitive nature to dig deep and for others, it was a means to
find answers to the loose ends often attached to an investigation rarely made
public. For me, that was important for other people to know the other side of
the perceived truth and behold, in many ways, a trick or task, almost as great
and wise as Solomon.
I was willing and unfearful of engaging in speaking with those
who asked questions, and found the means to dig up history unparalleled in
effort and energy against all odds. They arrived at the scene of the crime and
instantly saw a visual intuitive holograph of what happened and set out to
prove what they believed to be the truth.
Unfortunately, this ‘going rogue’ cast a dark and long
shadow on me personally and professionally. It created a drama scene that very
few could understand unless exposed to the same harsh politically motivated
mistreatment and exclusion of others formerly in my friendship circle or
professionally associated connections to the career I had chosen as a
professional.
My honor was never compromised. My knowledge, wisdom and
dialogue was created by many former successful professionals who served as my
mentor through the entire span of my career. Their wisdom, knowledge and capabilities
were never questioned. Not even the wisest of all men I knew, spoke like these
mentors or tutors did to me.
They created a man who was prepared to be ready and make
decisive conclusions and choices. I was taught to speak with a definitive sentence
and end the conversation in the same manner. The more questions they asked, the
more answers they received as I tried to master every situation.
The funny thing about this situation is that some admired me
for my wisdom while others tried very hard to slam me down and slur my name. Regardless
of the negative energy, I spoke the truth regardless of the threats or risks
involved. Of course, in reality, there was nothing funny about this but the
irony of the matters at hand was often exposures of the truth and the fact that
someone took deliberate pains and efforts to hide the truth.
Just like Solomon, I tried to use my knowledge and wisdom to
make me the master or every situation. There were many reasons to trust me and believe
what I was offering to be answers based on intuitive and practical experience in
the deceptive manner reports and other documents were written. I knew how the
writer omitted deliberate facts out of the laundered report so there was less
blame or no blame found in the summary or synopsis of such report writings.
They has good reason to trust me. I never asked for money or
other gifts and did this from my heart and passion for the truth. It is true
some attorneys paid me for my time and effort to decipher reports and write
summaries on cases they were handling but for many others, there was no fee involved
and caused some thoughts to expand the profession as a freelance consultant to
a full time paid status.
However, my love was in my work and dealing with people who
sought the truth and wisdom to relieve them from the anxieties and despair they
were experiencing because of the facts being hidden from them purposely and at
times, criminally in nature although hard to prove since they would challenge
you with ligation if you challenged them I court.
I gave my energy, wisdom and truths with an unselfish motive
to serve those who needed to know the truth. There were many who paid tribute
to my honor to do so as there were equally, many who chose to smear me. It seemed
to come with the territory. No one needed to bear witness to what was wrong or
right. Each person knows from their own heart the answer to such concerns. They
knew themselves their own thoughts and beliefs in their own eyes and mind.
I tried to work hard enough to where nothing was hidden from
the eyes of those asking the questions. All I asked in return was to believe
the words I expressed or thought and know in their hearts I was doing the best I
could under the circumstances provided. It was a perplexing situation but it
was satisfying for me because I helped others who needed help.
This is in no way a confession of any sins I might have
committed while searching for the truth. In fact, quite the opposite would be
true, I found peace and moral satisfaction of doing what I did for others who
were warned that sometimes, whatever I found in origin or nature, would have no
end. Some accepted this as a condition or agreement to help them but others
turned my words into a controversial convoluted and psychotic explanation of my
understandings and findings.
In no way did I ever betray those who sought my help. My knowledge
foretold many things that had been hidden well and as enemies do, I was brow
beaten by those who criticized my works and called me “disgruntled” and
incompetent from the beginning. I knew from the beginning, there were those who
would not believe me and whatever I told, would always be challenged.
In the meantime, I was betrayed by a few I had called
friends. I am telling you this so whenever you put yourself in the same
predicament or situation, you are prepared for the possibility that those who
associate with you, laugh with you and drink a beer with you, will or might
turn on you. Some are jealous of your ethics. Some wish they could be as strong
as you are and some are envious of the fact that you had the courage and
stamina to take the high road and fight off the lies and wrongdoing that is so
plentiful around us.
Basically it comes down to those who believe you and those
who do not. Those who will stay and remain true to you and those who betray
you. I am telling you this now because that is the truth and when someone takes
the time and effort to tell the truth, they are targeted by those who are
offended by the truth. They do not like what you do and make reasons for hating
you without due cause or reason. This is not about divinity. This is certainly
not a compelling warrant you should engage in the same actions I chose. This is
about faith, patience, and honor. When your time on Earth is done, you will be
judged on your actions and your heart. In the end, you will be seen as a person
who desired truth over lies. Facts over rumors and knowledge over myths.
I don’t know everything; not even close am I ever near the
universal limits of knowledge but I gave what I possessed and concluded that if
I didn’t know what was needed, I would search for more. I concluded the truth
on the morality of the matter at hand. My statements were unqualified in detail
but the details could have been incomplete or even lacking sufficient evidence
making it conjectural in nature rather than proof of a wrongdoing or misdeed. However,
it gave someone another path to follow and did deeper.
After all, I am but human and limited in my own capabilities
and capacities to seek the entirety of the matter. Doing the best I could, I was
never perfect but close to revealing what was hidden. I partially and
imperfectly gleaned what I could to give you the clues and questions to find answers
to when all was said and done. This is
how I know myself as I strive to understand others.
In some cases, I barely scratched the surface while in
others, I revealed a gross neglect of truths that were deliberately hidden or misstated
for reasons known only to the deceiver. Some were gracious revelations while
others were incomplete visions of derivative matter. You might want to compare
the reality with the fabricated truth that has been readily accepted to be the
final epitaph of the matter of concern.
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