I am getting
older and not necessarily wiser
I
daydream more today than I did of yesterday and yesteryear
It seems
the days are longer and the nights are shorter
As I see
my life pass me by and often just leaves me astray
Daydreaming
is not just for children or young adults
And the
art has never vanished away with the moments of time
But the
truth be told I see it more often each and every day of my life
As a meaningful
way to pass the day and handle the upcoming strife
I have no
regrets and yet I share some despair, pain and sorrow
For the
pain has never gone since you went away, and the hope has never reappeared
Perhaps my
broken heart will break into smaller pieces
Each day as I breathe another day, as the
tears that flow freely down my face,
washes them away
I care
not much to see tomorrow or the moments before the light goes dark
I care
not much to see the nightfall come and never see the stars again up above
For each
moment my heart beats weaker, I fear it is almost time to say goodbye
As I know
that today may be the day when I end the laughter with a final sigh
The day
that I have been fearing forever has come much closer
The time
when the clock finally stands still and ticks no more
And as I daydream
once more in my heart’s contentment of the past
I know
that soon, my life will end and close the door
No fears
for dying but fears for living forever has haunted me since I was young
A life
that I could have enjoyed so much more if I had only been a little stronger
If I had
given into love more often rather than the sin that surrounded me so often
And not
realize I closed another door that could have brought me into the light
So don’t
mourn for me or say you’re sorry when I silently pass away
I know
what I have done, regret no more than anyone else
Who lived their life the very same way as I did
mine
As I face
the final sunset of tomorrow, the clock will chime just one more time
And as death
comes knocking on my door, there may be hell or there may be heaven
I won’t
know until the moment comes but if it’s hell I will learn from my lesson
That everything
we do has a reason, a purpose and most of all,
A season
under the heavens
