a diary - a confession

Sometimes my books bomb. Somehow, while under duress of finding a plot or story, I turn in a irrational random assemblage of sentences, that were subconsciously kidnapped from my mind when either asleep or semi-comatose. It has been a common experience to wake up in the dead of night and stare at the blank black wall to force my thoughts into novelistic pages.

Random or arbitrary, I come up with a plan of chaos that is clearly spaced out and unwittingly dull to read.  It’s like I am thinking to write something against my will and yet, I stumble over every word to express myself. Reading my paper is like watching a boring television rerun that plays unfamiliar yet acquainted expressions that were written to interact with the blend of an exotic cocktail that is stirred mixed and shaken beyond its limits for the exquisite taste desired but falling short of such expectations.

After reading all that I have written, I trash it and throw it away as an unwanted desire to clearly express myself but bumbling over the right words and phrases. I am often and most certainly, held hostage by my own writings and seek to find a release from such situations to come back and do it all over again

Gun Control - a reversal is impossible at this point - what do you think?

As I write my blogs on the current events I want to say something about Gun Control – something that has been put on the front page of every major newspaper since the tragic San Bernardino mass shooting on Wednesday. Where were all these NRA opponents when the gun business was small but thriving under the leadership of strong lobbyist in Washington DC allowing their checks, they donations and their influence stream across political pandering lines without borders?
Where was ...the voice of reality and concern that this gun grabbing lobby would eventually be the demise of our legislative power to control gun sales effectively and legally? Through our silence, ignorance and willingness to look the other way, the NRA has become a conglomerate that is the most powerful influence on capitol hill without an exception.
My mind quickly turns to those years when gun sales were reasonably numbered through the hobby and hunting categories but now slide through the cracks with evil and sinister reasons for high capacity magazines and assault rifle types of sales joining high capacity handguns in the mix. This started out as a gun nut era that escalated into a mass gun nut era and now a pandemic around the country,
Instead of working together the past decades to defeat the power of the NRA, politicians chose to ignore their wealth, growth and influence. This is why we are in dire straits today. The NRA is out of control and the sales of guns has exceeded the government’s ability to control their possessions, use and numbers. This is a point of no return. The nexus between the NRA and Congress is strong yet nobody in their right mind stopped this evil growth of political pandering for more guns and more ammunition on the markets. I am sure that the wars we have engaged in
Brief reflections on each of the reluctant, convoluted and apathetic politicians who remained silent and passive is now the poison of the land – we are in times where guns rule almost every aspect of our lives and there is nothing our government can do short of breaking the Constitution to stop it.
Taking guns away today would make Americans victims to the onslaught of terrorism in the global regions and that by itself would be reasons to organize and refuse to surrender all guns on the pretense that the government can protect us.

A Social Contagion - its what is happening today

Pressure -

Every day we are faced with pressure

Peer pressure that dictates attitudes and behaviors

Pressure to perform or excel or in some cased, overwhelm

If we endure these hardships of life, we learn to become a better person

As pressure was meant to give you a positive opportunity to produce what you can

And at the same time learn how not to be crushed or experience the feeling of being lost

Pressure gives us abilities to do the things that sometimes brings despair

But if you handle it right, there isn’t a thing you can’t repair

 

So rather than destroy yourself, give it a try as you learn how to shape your dreams

Like a lump of coal, crushed under pressure becomes a diamond in the rough

The abilities you have as a person can endure wear and tear of your life’s toughest seams

So as you learn to endure and possess those skills you need to provide

You mind an hear become stronger so that in the darkness you do not hide

Life is good and often makes good on all its promises

Not all you will see is destroyed and none with every overtake you

As long as you learn to never quit on life and deal with the pressure it sends you