Some say that
rolling with the flow is weak and should never become a trend for if you let it
go, it will likely be your end. For me it’s easy, forgetting the stress is easy
and letting it flow is how I deal with the thoughts inside my head.
First I was
eighteen and it was all in my head that I would die before I reached thirty and
inside my head I would be dead. Then, with a miracle in life, I kept on rolling
with the flow, fighting change as little as I could, I endured the war, the
divorce and the addictions in my life that almost took my life.
My life was like a
two story house, and living in a bad neighborhood with nightmares with many
stories to tell and share with others around me. Somehow, I found the energy,
the strength, the perseverance to keep going on and go far away from the roots
of my troubles and moved before I changed my mind to leave Ohio.
I learned to keep
on rollin with the flow as I headed for New Mexico where I would straighten up
and be just fine. Leaving rock and roll behind and finding country, I took to
the open spaces and mountains as well as the dry and dusty deserts.
Still, all these
years, the thoughts of darkness were still inside my head and reaching for a
new age of forty before I am dead. Raising a new family, leaving the others
behind was a bad decision but a decision none the less, as I had to deal with
karma and leaving the raising hell I did in Ohio behind.
Fearing being
called a dead beat dad, I tried to keep up with my kids as best as I could as
they grew up, I also grew apart and rolling with the flow was just another way
to break my heart.
I was a bum, I needed
to find a better way for me to live and find the sun instead of the darkness
that had followed me daily. I also left a lot of crazy friends behind and some
will die before their time but one thing was for sure, they lived on the edge
and loved every moment of it.
Living in the
southwest sunshine, I prayed God forgives me for my sins; my stupidity and my
selfish behaviors. Instead of living out there going with the flow I am now
working hard and living a new life in the sun, rather than the darkness like
before.
As God forgives my
sins, I hope the law allows me to make a break for it as I stopped short of
being a criminal myself with the things I had done before. As going with the
flow, is not always the best way to go and if you do, you better be ready to
die young and leave the good life behind.
You have to learn
quickly, you can’t take it with you when you die, it’s gone when you are done
and dead. Inside my head I keep saying I ain’t getting younger, but rather older
and better as I learned to take the punches and rollin with the flow hoping to
never grow old.
So rollin with the
flow can be done and can add to your life if you take it easy rather than to
the limit like before when going with the flow meant crazy times and reckless
minds with everything on the line. Fighting the feeling to go crazy, is the way
to go; if you want to live longer, learn how to go with the flow.
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