Regrettably,
World War II was my father’s war. He was a prisoner of war and experienced it
from the perspective of a soldier in combat, in prison and as a veteran. He was
against war but he fought it with valor. He spent five years inside a prison
camp where he was abused and mistreated just like his fellow soldiers captured
at the battle’s end.
Traditionally,
my family has always been engaged in a war, a feudal war, a civil war, a war of
words and a war for peace. We had many discussions of war in our family but the
Vietnam War was mine and my brothers. It’s
true, we won the war but we lost it at the end. We fought valiantly and
thousands died but when it was over, we never won. We could have won and we
should have won but we lost the war.
We didn’t
lose it on the battlefields, we fought with exceptionalism and heroism but we
lost the war politically. At home there were families torn apart by the war and
each had their own reasons why. The Vietnam War was a bitter war that should
have never been begun. It was doomed from the moment we set boots on the ground
on this troubled South Republic of Vietnam.
Soldiers fought
fearlessly and struggled to meet the invisible enemy so hard to find. While at
home there were people, mothers, fathers, sons and daughters protesting this
war with passion from their hearts. There were politicians and truth tellers on
television telling the public how it really was while soldiers died in vain as
the cause was never defined or ever discussed.
Some say it
was a futile exercise to fight communism while others said it was an exercise
for freedom. The only truth that mattered was the exercise on the battlefields
as the casualties mounted and the names on the wall brought out the reality of
its horror and sacrificing of honored souls who died for their country.
There were
those who volunteered and there were those who were drafted. It didn’t matter
in the end as they all worked together to get tougher and braver so they could
endure the fight. Their color didn’t matter and their loss affected everyone
who knew their name.
Some came
home with guilt. Some came home without limb and some came home in a box. There
are lots of article and pictures about those heroes but nobody really cared
about them coming home until about twenty years later when the nation’s conscience
started to dig in the reality of abandonment and betrayal to those who served
with honor but were disrespected at the end.
In time the
guilt goes away while the trauma is never ending. There isn’t enough said or
done to heal the visible wounds on the outside while they suffer with the
invisible wounds on the inside the head as well as the heart. An everlasting
condition that would occasionally tear them apart.
This stuff
didn’t make the headlines then and it rarely makes it today. We don’t talk
about and it will never go away. The movies portray the war with heroes and
enemies and battle and death. We watch them over and over but never really
grasp the fact that war is much more than that.
I didn’t
join up with the Army for back then the Army joined me up against my will. They
said it was for the duty to my country so I stayed and endured the pain. Going through
basic training I realize I was but ant in a very large colony and who I was
would never be the same.
They take
your heart, your soul and the mind and take away your name. They teach you how
to kill and stay alive as your individuality dissipates away. Like the smoke of
a lost torpedo, you never know where you are going to stay but one thing is for
sure and that is war will never go away.
My father
was a proud and honorable soldier. He had told me war stories that made me
realize that there was no shame in feeling bad for those who were killed and
those who were about to die. He never joked about the war and neither did I. there
is no honor in desecrating souls who stood tall and died.
No matter what
side they were on, no matter what uniform they wore. They were soldiers who courageously
answered the call for duty and fight a war. So when you hear the stories told
about the war and how it was fought. Remember that no war is ever won for it
lasts forever inside your heart.
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