I am your Worst Nightmare

Can you tell I am your worst nightmare? I might be but I doubt it if you are on my FB ends list -
I’m sitting here with my laptop computer home, feeling well, alert and far from dying. I breathe air knowing that any minute, my life can change and change beyond any of my own imagination. I’m not scared, I am really not scared because I am not alone – I have many friends and relatives that know what is going on and what is happening and what I am working on and God is my witness, I am doing something ethical.
Every so often, I check my pulse, I watch my weight, and I exercise daily. I want to be fit for the challenges in life and at no time thinking about my death. I don’t sleep with the sheets over my head or stuck in the sand. I don’t visit the morgue and I walk the walk of life with happiness. I will be cremated when I do die but until then, I am alive.
I enjoy life to the fullest, I see the sunrise and sunset as the pivotal moments in my life. Each day I measure my self-worth and value. I try to remain grounded and even sing at times to show my joy. I love birds and how they sing, I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner with a piece of chocolate whenever I can.
This wheel keeps on turning until it can’t turn no more but I doubt that will happen anytime soon. I am alive, I am not forgotten, and I can sustain and adapt to this cruel world we live in.
My personal manifestation is integrity and sharing knowledge. I want it be said that if I am gone, somebody will notice it. Although not concerned about being liked, I wish to be respected. Scary is it? Is it unreasonable to be respected? Not at all but you must walk the walk and talk the talk in order to earn that respect. Just me writing this down should give you the willies.
Down deep inside, I worry a little about my family and friends. I have this primal need to be remembered but most of all, I want to be able to pass something on to somebody who will carry the torch of integrity and sharing knowledge for me. I think that’s maybe one of the reasons why I do what I do – stir controversy and provoke others to think.
I want to leave some mark on the world saying, “I was here.” I want my memory to remain honest, truthful and accurate. I want it to reflect my perceptions, my reflections and my intentions.
At the same time I want my memory to a reminder that when we share we care. I also want you to know that I have made mistakes, too many to mention but that they were honest mistakes. If we’re being honest, I think maybe that’s one of the reasons many of us start blogging.
There’s something immensely comforting about knowing your thoughts are out there for the whole world to read. You could kick the bucket tomorrow, but your words will live on, teaching, inspiring, and taking root in the minds of readers for generations to come That’s the idea – sharing my thoughts – sharing to have others read and words that will help you or guide you in your journey to success and blessings still to come.
Or at least that’s the idea. LOL - Peace to all - 2015